Psychology

» SpiritWarrior - there is something worse than dying and going to hell

...and I believe I have experienced it. I am 45 years old, which is to me amazing in itself. I have lived my entire life afraid of death (or so I thought), and then I died at the age of 39. I no longer have a fear of dying, as my suspicions were confirmed, we are not our physical bodies, and that we are our minds. Hell is merely a state of mind, not an actual place, although it can be experienced as such. Turns out my fear was actually dying and finding out that I hadn't lived, wouldn't get another chance, have wasted my life all the while blaming others and my life situations for my lack of success, joy, love etc.
Hell is being suicidal AND having an overwhelming fear of death. Purgatory is knowing that death is a process and not an event, that death isn't real, it is an absence of physical life. That if you are lonely and scared now, while in a physical body, you will be lonely and scared after you leave the body. That there is no abyss, no peace, no non-existence, no ending to your pain and fear and hate. Heaven is realizing that to enter the "Kingdom of Heaven" can be accomplished while still alive physically, and does not require but can include an association with a major religion. And the path to Heaven is found through healing, self-love, and an understanding of your place in the grand scheme of things, your life-purpose.

Now that I know these things, I can address my own fears and illnesses from a different perspective, and actually find joy, even in pain, although that is one of the toughest.

The only way to end fear is by understanding the purpose and causes of the fear.

When I was in my 30's, my co-workers persuaded me to go to a psychic for the first time. My friends went first and as they came back they were excited and talkative, sharing portions of their readings, including their supposed "lucky numbers" they paid $45 dollars for. When it was my turn for a reading, the psychic refused to give me a reading or to take my money or give me my lucky numbers. He said, "There is no reading for you. I'm sorry. But we could chat about other things if you would like, but I cannot take your money in good conscience, as I have no reading to give you.
Imagine the panic attack I had underway, as I assimilated this information as saying, "I have no future!"
When I had calmed down enough to LISTEN, I realized that what he was actually saying was that he could give me a reading based on the person that I was right then, but that Spirit wouldn't allow it because I would be influenced in a negative way. That I was coming to a place where two roads crossed, and that if I made the right decision, I would not be the same person. He told me that by age 45, I would not even remotely resemble the person I was. He told me that he was in awe of me, that he could see that I had already experienced enough pain in this short lifetime, to last for seven lifetimes. I guess I really am a warrior, because as I say, I'm now 45, and I have broken the cycle of fear, and far outlived the expectancy placed on me by 2 doctors over the past 6 years. For the first time in my life, I am really living.

I wish you all Joy and Healing, especially at this holiday season, although it may come in a different form than expected.

Live, Learn, Love, Laugh Always
Lori

-- posted by SpiritWarrior