Psychology

» katie75 - I've also just learned that he is slandering me to his "friends

I've also just learned that he is slandering me to his "friends". He is telling them that I am volotile, that I have threatened to slit my wrists, that I refuse to move out of his home. Believe me, none of the above is true. If I had the money, I'd move in a heartbeat. I have been working 10 to 12 hours a day just so I can save money to move out.

I was never that much in love with him (or anyone for that matter) to ever threaten to commit suicide. I am not the 14 year old as he seems to think that I am. He has also told everyone he knows that I blow up every time we talk, but we never talk anymore and I no longer care enough to have any emotions about the situation. The only emotion I have now is extreme confusion. I don't understand how someone can beg a person to give up their life and then say "Oops, changed my mind; I don't want this anymore and I'm not even going to try."

Normally I am the type of person who will try to figure out the how's and why's of a situation before I can let it go, but in this case, I don't have the desire to try to figure it out. I just want to get out before things get bad.

Our sex life is becoming violent; he pulled my hair and strangled me during sex a few nights ago. I am usually a very open person and don't mind trying almost anything once, but this was extremely painful and I was afraid to say something to him about it since he'd been drinking beforehand.

I am going to go to the county agency here in town to see if I can get some help with my finances so that I can get away as soon as possible. I think he's even trying to put my son in the middle of it all and I refuse to allow any of this to continue. He claims he wants to continue to be friends after I move out, but I think he has proven himself not to be friend worthy.

-- posted by katie75